Mixed Blessings ...

Tomorrow we head to Children's Hospital for an EEG on Hannah.

Two years ago ... our lives were turned completely upside down by epilepsy.

Some may think that it didn't really conflict our lives because it wasn't a death sentence. At the time ... I truly did not know what the future held for my precious little girl. Until someone can see their child in a state of incoherence brought on by a seizure, they will never know the feeling. I can still today picture her seizing and Rich and I trying to remain as calm as can be just to talk her out of it. It is such a helpless feeling. Does she hear me? Can she see me? Is she in pain? Why?

Will we be capable of moving forward and hopefully (all fingers and toes crossed) begin the process of weaning her off her medicine that to date has controlled her seizures. The future is held in the EEG test.

I am scared ...

Scared that the test will come back abnormal and her life will continue on having to take her daily medication.

Scared that we will start the process of weaning the meds and time will tell if she has outgrown them.

Scared I will have to see her have another seizure.

SCARED.

This is the part of life that I just need to be blessed with all the great things that I have. Such a beautiful family. Life will go on ... and our love for one another will hold strong .. whatever the outcome may be.

Not Always as Planned ...

Life sometimes throws us curves that are not forseen.

Memorial Day Weekend, was supposed to be a camping trip to let us explore the wilderness ... until Grams form of transportation became immobile. So along side a desert road my mom sat awaiting a desert dweller to fix her automobile. Much to our disappointment, desert dwellers are not mechanics!!!

So ... Jaime to the rescue!!! Late at night, Jaime brought alternate transportation along with a horse trailer to rescue my mom.

Where were we ... in KERNVILLE, CA. Believed to be the place any insane white water rafter heads on Memorial Day weekend. Unable to find a camping spot we were fortunate enough to get into Kernville Inn for a restful nights sleep.

We were not going to be detered ...

so ...

off to Dome Rock we headed.

Guess where we went next ...HOME TO OUR KING SIZE BED!!!

Splish, Splash ...

The weather has been amazing.
Each day when the kids get home from school they want to swim. They have so much fun together in the pool. Usually no arguing (which I am all for)!!!

Awards ...

This week was a great week for the kids at school. They both received awards.

Hannah was awarded the writers award. She was so excited and proud. She did not stop smiling.

Jeremy was awarded the physical performance award. He was Mr Cool about it. We could tell he was gleaming but he was trying to be sly about it.

Of course, Rich and I had to try to get his attention which just royally annoys him!!! He would not look at us ... are we really that embarrassing???? Heehee!!!

Congratulations to both of my little scholars. They are doing so great!!!

Epilepsy Stroll 2009 ...

This past Saturday we joined many people in the Stroll for Epilepsy in Vallejo, CA. Our team, Hannah's Bananas consisted of Rich, Corie, Jeremy, Hannah, Grams, Grandma and Grandpa. Unfortunately, Michele and Jack were unable to make it due to an unforseen event. We missed them!!!

The temperature was HOT but we strolled on!!! Hannah and I chose to not ride the water rides but everyone else kept cool by getting drenched (and I mean drenched).

My camera battery died before the walk got started so Grandma will have to update me with the pictures from her camera.

Looking forward to Epilepsy Stroll 2010.

To My Mom ...

I want to take this opportunity to tell my mom that I love her more than words. She is truly an inspiration. She has taught me to be a great person and I give her hugs for that. I put her through many ups and downs as a teenager and she just forged through the hard times and loved me continuosly. She is an incredible gram's that my kids adore.

Mom ... you are a beautiful person and I love you so much.

LOVE OF MY LIFE ...

I am dedicating this post to the love of my life, Rich.

I don't think there is a way to truly describe the deep love I have for him. I miss him no matter how long I am away from him. He leaves in the morning and I can't wait for him to walk back through the door. When he is gone on a business trip I yearn for his presence. He completes me.

I want to shout out to the world what an awesome guy he is.

RICH ... I LOVE YOU ... ALWAYS AND FOREVER. YOU ARE MY SPARROW.

Today is My Birthday ...

Happy Birthday to Me!!!

I love my birthday. I make my family celebrate it the whole week! The kids love deciding what we will eat, what kind of cake and what should my party theme be. This year it is Fajita Fiesta. Rich is going to grill up some great fajitas and we are going to celebrate in style with great friends.

I thought it would be fun to see what happened today in 1974:

Average Cost of new house $34,900.00

Cost of a gallon of Gas 55 cents

Average cost new car$3,750.00

55 MPH Speed Limit imposed to preserve gas usage US wide